Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Blessing and a Curse


Woaaa… it’s not easy viewing myself in pictures and video~
I feel cursed and blessed - It’s very intense.
I’ve been blessed and cursed with this body builder’s physique; the structure of a Grecian goddess.

Now I am 50% Greek and 25% Swedish and another 25% Norwegian. That’s it. And when God handed out the genes of Olympia I guess I was near because my body cries out “pump you up” to me with every photo!

It’s difficult enough creating personal songs that reveal the heart let alone exposing one’s self also through the video and photography medium. I’m sure many of you artists will agree, it’s always a challenge to be ok with what you release. Be it music, photos, video, art, and to feel great about it.

We artists tend to be perfectionists and often times we end up taking a lot of takes to get the best shot and such. And then even then we are iffy and critical when we look at the work.

Well, I have trained with the vision of being a great performer for 16 years consistently and my foundation is thick and strong now. Kinda like when Janet Jackson and Madonna came out, they were thick and strong and then got their cuts from touring. (I always believed this would be true for me to)

I felt and believed a great performer who was able to dance and sing at the same time had to have a lot of endurance. So for years I diligently listened to all kinds of music to encourage me while training and Steven Curtis Chapman’s “When the Rubber Hits the Road”, still stands out to me. I guess that’s because when my opportunity to fly arrives, I’ve planned to be fully prepared and capable of the grueling and pleasurable task of touring. By then I hope to be “in the zone” for the duration of the task. Now sometimes with the way the music biz looks I ask myself am I a bit nutty? Might I be diluted?

With gas prices so high and ticket sales for shows down, it is easy to get into doubt. Alas though I continue to train to keep what I have gained.
If not only for my health, strength, and wellbeing.

And even though sometimes I feel like I may look like I am going out for the wrestling team I prevail.

I’ll keep putting the pics and vid’s out until one day….I get that call saying
WoW- Would you like to be on American Gladiators? Just kidding. :-0

Let me rock your world. Stay tuned!
I know your gonna love me… nonetheless