Friday, September 10, 2010

LOVE AND PAIN

The other day I was working in the front room of my house with the windows wide open. Outside was a young man in his late twenties or so, crying and screaming into his cell phone as he walked around in front of my house obviously breaking up with his love partner.

He was screaming and crying out, “CAN’T YOU SEE I LOVE YOU? DON’T DO THIS!!! I LOVE YOU!!! WHY ARE YOU RUNNING FROM ME??? I TRY TO LOVE YOU BUT YOU RUN!! I LOVE YOU!! NO, DON’T DO THIS!!”

He was painfully distressed and I was heart wrenched for the guy! It brought me back to a time past when I’d had my heart broken and all this beautiful music was born. Man, CAN LOVE HURT!!

I remembered as my heart was pounding with pain through my ex’s cold response for my loving dilemma. With this particular relationship I was tore up from the floor up! I wanted to die. I lay on the bed sobbing for what felt like days. I flashed on the times (two in hindsight) things went the other way around and I had broken my lover’s hearts. I started to see both sides of the coin. I began to really know how it felt when the dream of love died. Only then was I beginning to see what love really was.

From that point on, I made it a point to walk carefully and handle with care my choices for love. I embraced the idea of loving myself in a big way first and not falling for the easy route hooking up because I did not want to be alone or lonely. I chose to face any fears and loneliness head on and put to rest any co-dependence that comes from insecurity. I’d focus on my personal healing and education of love in order to really have a great love one day. I still believe and contently wait as I become more beautiful and whole by the day.

We are ever changing and as I grow more mature, I see how our needs change. It often takes living through some great pain to realize what it is we really have when we stand in the flame of love. Love is a powerful energy and a state of great enlightenment. It seems so simple yet complicated and illusive. Unconditional love was all I ever hoped for. And a GREAT MAN with a GREAT HEART who loved a GREAT GOD. Am I asking too much? Good things come to those who wait? I still believe.

For now,I shall let the music tell the story.


LOVE TAKES TIME


Hugs and love to you,

Miss Kristin

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Miss Kristin Featured on Channel 15 KMTV

Miss Kristin introduces some of her early work on KMTV "The Better Part" for Channel 15 television viewers everywhere. Featured songs from the "Trouble Child" , "The Secret of Your Heart" and "You Can't Hide Love" collections. http://facebook.com/1misskristin